suddenly, feelings. thousands of them!

[brbvirmire]

WHAT DOES X THINK OF Y?
THE MEME: THE GAME

This has been going around Plurk anyway and it's been a few months so why not?

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[equinerotica.livejournal.com]

How u doin'..?

[destinist.livejournal.com]

wweh

tl;dr NOT YOUR SMOOCHBOT STOP THAT

Aradia just. doesn't really know how to feel about Equius. she's never had any blackrom feelings for anyone before, and then he went and gave her a robot body and tried to force her to love him and then SUDDENLY, SPADES. she was just so angry at him that any attraction she might have felt before her death just sort of twisted into hatehatehate.

except she's not black for him at all once she's mellowed out and now especially when she's alive again. so that leaves her in a really awkward place. she's still a little bit angry for what he tried to do to her, but she's stuck in a weird place where she's also forced to be thankful to him for helping her out in the first place. the robotic shell he built her gave her the form she needed to be able to play Sgrub properly. without it, she'd have probably failed her duties. it's also said that it amplified her psychic powers and was one of the only reasons she was able to stave off the Vast Glub from the Black King. and then there's the whole deal of Equius did it because he genuinely cared about her. yeah, it was in a really creepy, obsessive, misguided way, but he gave enough of a shit about her to try to help her. and that would have been fine if it weren't for that new heart- and, to be honest, I don't think she's too happy about having been given blue blood, either. when she was alive, she viewed all highbloods as snobs. growing up at the bottom of the hemospectrum was hard for her, so she mistrusts them naturally. but Equius makes her feel so uncertain about everything.

she does seem to have reached some sort of peace with his actions, though, because in 'Seek the highb100d' Nepeta talks about having dreamed about god tier Aradia and says 'she was so happy, just like she used to be, and she said she would s33 you soon!'. so I can only assume that her intention was/is to visit Equius after his death in his dream bubble, because what's the point of holding onto resentment? so that's her perspective in Sing, too, even if it's so frustrating to explain to him/Sollux/others. she really, really wants to give Equius a chance. the most she can offer now is her friendship- which, honestly, she feels like is a pretty big step for the two of them, given all the problems laid out on the table.

despite being wary, she cares about Equius, and she'd really hate to see him crushed. she just doesn't know how to reconcile her feelings for Sollux with this strange sense of wanting to understand Equius. she's definitely not black for him, but she has no idea what she feels, really. time will tell.